Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Good dream leaves a bad feeling

I've felt a bit off all day. The day got off to a weird start.

I've always had a hell of a time falling asleep. As a kid, I would go to bed and spend hours playing out elaborate scenarios in my head.

Going to sleep has never been easy. But once I'm asleep, I sleep the sleep of the dead. On weekends if I want to get up before, oh, say noon, I have to set an alarm, no matter what time I go to bed. On weekdays I set three alarms every morning, and still have to be careful I don't hit the snooze button so long that I don't make it to work until lunch. If there is ever a fire in the early morning hours I'm ash.

But this morning I woke up a couple hours before my first alarm was set to ring. I was in the throws of a dream. A sex dream.

The odd thing is that rather than it being arousing, it was disconcerting. I don't know what it was about the dream that put me off, but I was freaked out, not turned on.

Wasn't I supposed to be turned on? And why wasn't I? It is a feeling that left me empty and out of sorts. That's a feeling I haven't been able to shake all day. It's sort of like the feeling waking up after a bad one-night stand and realizing what, and who, you just did.

Now, it's time for bed again and I'm tired and still out of sorts.

Maybe all will look, and feel, better in the morning.

3 comments:

Weary Hag said...

You're right. Dreams that leave us feeling "off" kill the entire day for us, don't they?
I guess anytime we dream we've done or said something completely out of character, that'll happen.

I used to set two alarm clocks and one of them had to be placed clear across the room with the volume on "deafen" ... I still had trouble getting out of bed.
Now? I'm up at 5 every morning and can't usually sleep longer than two hours at a clip throughout the night. Be happy you don't have to deal with menopause. :)

3rdtimesacharm( 3T ) said...

Well what was the sex dream about? (Too personal? Well it doesn't hurt to ask about it...)
;-)

The G-man said...

You don't need to know everything, do ya?

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